Subject:
One of Paul\'s fans at the Soboba show
From:
Laurette Havranek on 07/28/2007
Dear Gene, Eric, and Tommy, and especially Paul,
Gene asked for us to write in about our Soboba show thoughts and get-well wishes for you, Paul. I can only think of telling you, my beautiful KISS, about what a significant night it was. To begin with, maybe I should say something, it might explain the reason *why* I write. You see, I have always, always, had to fight to have my KISS, all my life, and the fight has never ever stopped, from a family that found KISS \'satanic\', to jealous boyfriends and co-workers, etc. It culminated in loosing all of my worldly possessions back years ago, which included any KISS stuff I had left. Broke and no money then for higher education, I finally gave up internally on everything just before I met my husband (he is no KISS fan, either) and I attempted to just get anywhere by then. It is relevent to say that KISS and the Starchild never gave up on me through those years, because I saw you all in my dreams, and you helped me that way, believe me, but all of that is another story. Now, just this year, I was able to FINALLY see KISS again live at this Soboba Casino show, and even though they were pricey tickets, I purchased them, vowing to my skeptical husband that KISS would definitely be worth it. Indeed it was a sacrifice, as I was saving money this year for Nursing classes, as I want to become an LVN. Now, I was getting some odd vibes before the show but threw it all off to nerves. And you just didn\'t and didn’t come out, while the vibes got odder...then Doc came out, and Gene...Gene, I was the gal in Paul\'s make-up, the oversize airbrush of Paul, and the purple feather boa, so I don\'t think you missed me, even though today I can furnish no photo and I was over on Tommy\'s side. Now, with the crushing news that Paul was hospitalized and with the symptoms and intervention you described...I am sorry, but my first impulse was to weep and really probably scream. However, Paul and you, Gene, Tommy, and Eric, and the audience wanted the show to go on. So of course, like the Generals of the KISS Army you are, you gave us the show. I then realized that, I had to do the show too, do everything I was gonna do at a KISS show, and be a KISS fan, be a Paul fan, because that is my function as a part of KISS, so I went on too. It was so touching Gene, to hear you say, over and over, how KISS is there because were are there. It was so wonderful to hear you call Paul your brother. Please forgive me Gene, I was still reeling emotionally when you were calling for Paul fans to sing...I think all I could have done was wonder up to you, lost, and forget the words under stress. When I was leaving at the end, the people around me told me that I needed to go sing, one fellow calling me \'Paul Stanley\' too, he said I needed to be there. I realized then that, at the Soboba concert, I and all other Paul fans were Paul that night, we all represented Paul there...that is intensely spiritual and meaningful for me, and I will never forget that, not ever. So to conclude my thoughts on the most awesome KISS show of my life, I thank you for going on and playing, and I thank you for letting me see KISS again for the first time in some 20+ years. Now, Paul, you get better! I will send you all the healing energies I can. And KISS, promise me, promise me! You will play me a Southern CA show again in the near future when Paul has fully recovered. I need you, KISS, and you never gave up on me, especially you, Starchild. Let\'s all continue our lives together, and take our places, side by side, against whatever destiny brings us. We are one.
Laurette Havranek
San Diego CA
KISS Army since ‘76-’77